Childhood dreams always linger in our minds. Like many little girls I wanted to be a ballerina. The reason I was told that I could not was because my breast were too big. That wounded me. I was eight years old, yes I developed early and I also developed a challenging self image. It wasn’t until adulthood that I stopped saying, "I’m too big for that shirt, that shirt is to forming, and only if I were smaller". It was very unhealthy self talk. I focused on my body as the problem and not the clothes. I never fully learned to love my whole self, just as God made me.
Then I arrived in Pink Valley. Breast cancer and any other type of cancer will change you in so many ways: emotionally, mentally and physically. I was taken back to my journey with my self image concerning my breast. I wanted to know what was going to happen with surgery, etc. I was wondering so much it became worry. I prayed for peace and for these thoughts to stop. God answered like He always does. I was about to receive a healing that I needed since childhood.
One day I wasn’t doing anything, listening to praise music and drifted off. Next, thing I knew I wanted to dance. So I stood up and began to dance around my bedroom. I could feel the presence of God as I moved around and He spoke to me in away I cannot explain. I just know after the dancing and the tears I felt the weight of my self image lift. How God's sees me is all that matters. I am His child. I felt like a little ballerina while dancing with my Heavenly Father.
“I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Marvelous are Your works, and I know this very well.” Psalm 139:14
God wants to dance with us in the valley. To guide us, love us and tell us that we are beautiful in His eyes. He doesn't care how you look: both, one, none, deformed breast. You are and will always be His precious ballerina. Not only did God provide peace for my current situation, he brought healing to a childhood wound.