Some days in Pink Valley was filled with levels of frustration that turned into victories in faith.
One of the lowest points in our country is found in a valley. According to the internet, "“Badwater Basin in Death Valley National Park is the lowest point in North America, with an elevation of 282 ft below sea level. At Badwater, significant rainstorms flood the valley bottom periodically"
If I had to describe my toughest days physically, I would say that I felt like I was in that rainstorm flooding. My greatest challenge was the feeling of physical heaviness. When your clothes are wet from the rain and you try to move you feel a heaviness. You may think, if I can just get out of this water and wet clothes, dry myself off, I will be okay. Some days due to medication, my legs would be aching and heavy. Being athletic this was such a challenge for me.
I had to learn to take it one day at a time. One step at a time. Some days it seemed as though the steps would play tricks on me and I could not find my footing. It was like the length and height of the steps varied. I sometimes lost the feeling of my true self and classified myself as a couch potato, sedimentary lifestyle, because I simply could not workout.
I decided to accept my position. There comes a time when you have to meet yourself where you are. Be honest and truthful because of the journey you are on. I did not choose cancer, it is not my fault that I am in this season. I cannot control the way my body responds to the medication. But, I can keep trying. I can keep fighting. As Philippians 4:13 says,
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
I will keep climbing in faith, knowing and believing that I will gain back my physical health and strengthen, one step at a time. I am victorious!