Keeping It Real
Today I thought I would share from the viewpoint of my down side and my attitude when I was not feeling so well and how the Holy Spirit was faithful and intervene.
Sorry but I'm in a mood today. There's a grumpy pink little monster inside of me. I can't help myself. It's not that I am saying it is okay because I am going through Pink Valley, but come on. I am tired all the time, foggy thinking, nausea and some vomiting, oh yeah, my bones ache like heavy metal hitting the floor and my muscles ache too. See what I'm saying? I'm not making excuses, I'm just keeping it real. I don't want to talk and I don't want you to do anything for me but please leave me alone. I don't mean that in a harsh way but in a, I'm going to be this way, way. Can't you see I'm just going through, having a moment. Be careful I may be smiling at you but I will try to bite off your finger, so don't touch me, I'm just that grumpy. (The Spirit begins to speak).
What's that sound, who's there, who said that? Who's playing mind games. (The Spirit speaks). Oh yes, I know I am a Christian, but I can be depressed sometimes, right? King David was, wasn't he. I think I have a case, as a breast cancer patient, I've been pricked, cut, burned and drugged and unsure of the time I have left in this life...don't forget the insomnia and weight changes. (The Spirit keeps speaking). I don't care if you know a scripture that can help me, I know scripture too! (The Spirit speaks scripture) Oh, that one, yeah, that's a good one. Forgot about that. Oh, just go ahead, throw another scripture at me, (The Spirit speaks more). Yes God is that to us, God does love us. (The Spirit speaks continuously) Well, what you say, that is in the bible. Ooh that is so comforting. Hmm, I'm feeling better. I never though about it like that. (The Spirit speaks on last Word) Yes, Jesus is my Savior, Oh, how I love Jesus. (End of conversation).
To sum it up, all that I am going through will help someone else. It's a testimony. Revelation 12:11 says, "And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death." With Jesus, I overcame focusing on myself and my misery in this journey. I decided to sit back and reflect on the goodness of God in my life and prayed my grumpy little pink monster self away. Thanking Jesus who said,
"I will ask the Father, and He will give you another Helper (Comforter, Advocate, Intercessor—Counselor, Strengthener, Standby), to be with you forever—the Spirit of Truth, whom the world cannot receive [and take to its heart] because it does not see Him or know Him, but you know Him because He (the Holy Spirit) remains with you continually and will be in you." John 14:16-17
Thank you for speaking to me Holy Spirit.